Every night before I go to bed I make a choice. I take a little orange pill and wonder if I will ever be able to stop. I know how to quit but I'm afraid to start that process. Will I go through withdrawal symptoms? Will I get sad, anxious, angry? Will others notice? Will I act differently?
Every night I make the choice to take the pill, even though I think about not taking it. As much as I wonder what will happen if I don't take it, I'm more afraid to find out.
I hate being addicted.