Just ask me, I'm an expert! My 3 month old won't sleep. No naps, up every 45 minutes to 1.5 hours at night. If I weren't taking Celexa I would have broken down well before today. But today is an official breakdown.
I called the pediatrician's office and the nurse told me to let her cry it out (CIO). I tried that for one of her naps and she screamed for 30 minutes. I picked her up, calmed her down, and nursed her to sleep. I put her down in her crib and she's making noise already and it's only been 10 minutes. If I rock her to sleep and put her down she's usually up within 30 minutes, sometimes five. If I try to put her down drowsy so she can put herself to sleep she just gets super pissed off and cries. She just wants to be held.
And she's super fussy all freaking day long because she's SO TIRED. She doesn't get the sleep she needs. And that's my fault. I really need a break because I feel completely spent. There's not much more of me left. I want to feel pretty again, I don't want to always look like I just rolled out of bed. I want to brush my teeth in the morning, but sadly that's the last thing that usually gets done ... so sometimes it doesn't get done at all until bedtime. I want to have time to shave my legs. I want to remember what it feels like to be good at something, because I feel good at nothing right now. My house is a disaster. I'm just sitting here crying because my whole body feels too heavy & exhausted to get up and do anything.
Dear God, make me a bird so I can fly far ... far, far away from here.